和阿辉一伙的事件，造成她内心很大的矛盾和不安，和她来往的信件中，类似这

        种内心纠结的片段一再的出现：

        AabandonedFeiandcameover,repgB&039;spce.IthinkIsawa

        Luckilymyperiodessometimeafter,andIstartedtakingmypills

        Atthefirsttime,whenFaiwasligmypussyhisfriendssaid,「看

        有技巧地爱抚，自然逐渐入气氛，最后逃不过被侵犯的命运。

        我给亚辉们弄了几个小时，最后终于倦极了祼在床上休息。早上亚辉偷袭，连

        最要命的是他们不是鲁蛮干蛮抠，反而是一步步挑起我的情，对我这一个除了

        Itoldhimnottoeiofcourse,hedidnotlisten.

        她想叫又不敢叫的様子，便知她很欠干&8943;&8943;」

        getmeinbedfirst,andusemyweaknessofafraidtoletothersknow

        whoarenotawillingpartygettrickedintosubmittingtoasexual

creaming.Hemademeeshortly.Maybeitisthesituation,or

        tillucame,andthenpulledout.

        pills).

        之后亚辉哄哄骗骗的叫我再出去，我也不知自己到底是什么心情，出去之前很

        westernworld,thereisagreyareacalledrelut,meaningsomeone

        hintofhatredfromhowFeilookedatme,butthenthepleasurewas

        justpushindeeperandshothishottomyt!

        ，我给进去的肉棒弄醒,不但没有推拒，还抱着他迎合着。

        ThistimeIwasveryworried,asIhadstoppedtakingmypillforsome

        IamthinkingshouldIcallthefirst4PwithAhFairape.Inthe

        againasIknewnowIneedprote.

        onthesofaandaimhiscockagainstmymessywetpussy.Hedidnot

        areuonthepill?”Ishakemyhead,butinsteadofpullingouthe

        anddeep.AfterafewstrokeIfeltlikeingagain.Herideme

        aarget,andinsteadofdatingandso,AhFaitookashortcutto

        前戏也没有便直接插入来。可能是和老公之外的第一次给了他，卸下了我的矜持

        maybeIjusthadnothadgoodsexfortoolong.

        situationthatshewasninallyintended,butendupenjoying.

        totraioasexobject.

        MaybeIamohose.Lagaregursexlifeandlonenessmademe

        sointenseIdidnotevencare.Amademecameagain,andthenasked“

        关于地下赌场的片段：AfterIcamethe2ndtimeBjustpushedmedown

        evenbothertoremovemydress,justliftitupandshoveditinhard

        丈夫从未接过其他男人的人妻来说，虽然明知不对，但被三个男人包围着

        抗拒，

        time(well,Idoohavesex,what&039;sthepointoftakingthe